Back at tekun

Actually i was in penang since sunday but was with my family and didn't back to hostel...i finished my class, walked to sungai 2 to get something and walk back to take bus back to tekun...at first planning to buy a 5litres mineral water, but end up didn't cos i'm dead tired and i don't want to carry back the 5liter water from maju jaya...and not having water supply today is like the cherry on top of all these...i can't clean my room without water...i can't take my stuff out of store without them opening...i can't do many things and i'm so veggie now...T_T

Planning

I'm not a planner, i'm more to a doer...i always act on impulses and my plans gone astray, always...maybe thats the reasons i don't really plan my stuff...*excuses nia*  Alright alright, i lazy to plan also...teehee....
But recently somehow, i realize the importance of planning...damn i need an organizer and a good planning advice...

Reading

I was reading one of my junior's blog and kinda like her blog...she might not even know i'm reading her blogs, hey i ain't a stalker, just that i love reading blogs, those inspiring blogs bout their life which sometimes will make me thought bout mine and have a different perspective...especially times when i was frustrated and i keep turning and turning at the same point, not finding a way out and stuck there, feeling depressed...Reading, be it blogs or novel makes me feel better and if i'm lucky that moment, i will find a way out of my frustration...maybe that's the reasons why i love to read, mandarin or english and even malay, i read them all...even food blogs...xD

I feel like finding some new novels to read, as shallow as it may sounds, i love romance  novels, frankly i don't really like non-fiction or those philosophy ones....i prefer materials which talk bout people and lives, even though novels remain novels and you will  never encounter things like that in real life...haha feel like i'm contradicting myself...anyway, just love to do what i love....

Back at home

After being stuck in penang with very-inconvenient-connection for weeks, finally i'm back at my home sweet home, though i will be leaving for penang again in another week time...miss my home so much though i left it for only bout one month....what's more, my brother and sister will be back and will spend time with them esp my brother...<3<3
Nope i haven't finished my FYP but i've done what i planned so i'm giving myself a week break...xD  I need to write more i think, if not  my english will rot and my blog will grow spiders web again...lols...not much to update though...wait till i have something to share then will update again...

back

Due to some i-don't-know-what-problems, i can't get online in steph's house while the next room (justin n peifei) can load movies and dramas from their room itself...it's so unfair!!! T_T
I've been wanting to get online and update my bloggie, and now when i'm here in foyer after lab, i can't think of stuffs to type....=.='''
The time with the girls always fun and i can speak whatever i'm thinking of to them..yea not necessarily it will solve the problems but when u speaks whats bugging you, you feels dozens better and lighter....love you girls...xoxo
Hope my lab will be smooth and steady and i can finish it early so that i can back to my home the week before school reopen, cox my brother and sister will be home, i miss them loads.....
till then~~

random

manipulating and caring is different

don't try to change or mold me into what you are expecting

cos i won't be manipulated

if i wanna be that way, i will myself

don't need you to change me

insomnia

i went to bed after the last post and was lying on bed for the past one and a half hour, and here i am , still wide awake...i on the laptop , hoping my eyes will get tired and i will sleep straight when i go to bed later...it can be the worst thing happening to me, few days before the exam...i don't even know what am i typing now....gosh

running nose

I love to eat wantan , not making them....

i'm blur worn out tired gonna go sleep after this post

How i wish my mom is here now...i miss you mom  *sobz*

Food~~Food~~

In the midst of my solid state, my tummy started to shout for food~~~

and i remembered this 

Gosh i love home-made fruit tarts...cos you can't get fruit tarts with this amount of fruits and filling from outside...xD 

And i'm craving for

steamboat

sushi (ebikko, salmon mango lobster)

pizza

egg (sunny side up, scrambled egg, soft-boiled egg, steamed egg, egg pudding in milk tea? i just love eggs)

cakes (lotsa cream and moist cake)

crepe / pancake

猪脚醋 (pork leg vinegar? direct translation lols)

冰糖葫芦

potatoes, sweet potatoes, tapioca? (i love these)

and the list goes on and on

gotta stop thinking!!!

it just make me getting hungrier, aargh~~!

Liese Juicy Shower Moisturizing Hair Mist

Liese Juicy Shower Moisturizing Hair Mist
I read bout this on my friend's blog and so tempted to buy...cause its water base, raspberry-ish and the packaging is so cute!! Yea if you wanna trick me into buying your stuff, just make the packaging as cute as ever, then i will fall into trap and buy...xD
But for this the review is good though, unlike those product which make your hair feels oily and heavy, yucks...

The 200ml (RM31.90)

Well since i'm broke now, paying RM31.90 to try this product is a little too much...

But i saw this

The 70ml at RM7 only

Haha so i'm gonna get this one since i'm broke now...i asked jay to help buy for me if she sees this....so fingers crossed kao kao...xD

Give and Take??

There are people

who take things from you

who wait for you to give them things

who give you things when you asked

who come and find you and give you things without you asking

who take all your love and never return them

who give all their love without asking back

who give all their love and expect you to give them back

who give their love as much as you give

who draws back when you did

who care for you even if you don't
who doesn't care even if you do
who care for you and you care too
well i do believe in giving and taking at the same time
i will feel bad if all i do was take and take and take and never giving
i will feel like i owe the person something if i just keep taking
which was why i will feel pressured at times like this
i share things cause i feel sharing is caring
if you never share it's fine with me but at least don't just keep taking and not sharing
well it hurts
and for your info no one is obliged to give you everything
so don't have this mindset that he/she should give you everything
never take the person kindness for granted


So what are you like?

disappointed

Yeah i feel disappointed at you...you won't even know i'm talking bout you...haha...when things happen and you will know that advice given to you before was so right and mentally slap yourself for not listening earlier....

There's no next time and don't blame me for being selfish, you just don't deserve my generosity...they are meant for better ones.... 

Halloween?

Haha i just remembered today is Halloween..another month gone in 2010...

~~~Happy Halloween~~~

finals coming

There's nothing better than having some quality time with your family, even when all you do was just eat eat and eat and talk of course...it's not that being with friends is no fun but the feeling is different, you get what i mean...after 2days with them and now back at my hostel room, happy feeling slowly change to the feeling you have when finals' approaching..when i say approaching, i mean ya very near, which is 14days away, 14days left for me to prepare for 2papers, which obviously not really sufficient...just do my best and hope for the best!!

*guess wont be updating much, unless i really freaked out during these 14days*

All da best guys!

i'm bad

Waking up in the feeling happy that today gonna see my parents and my sister...

*heart heart them*

Suddenly i had this thought barging int my head again, and i feel that somehow i'm bad...gosh i'm bad...it doesn't mean that i do drugs, get wasted or whatsoever..ya u know what i meant by the "bad"...

I'm bad in 

studies timetable - it seems like my timetable's a mess

handling matters - i handle matters badly which hurt people 
*slapping myself mentally*

time management - prioritize unimportant stuff 

fulfilling what i've said - didn't do what i've planned eg running o.O

Oh God i don't even know what i'm writing and the purpose of this already...ya i know and i can see the o.O faces on you....

MARLBORO

Man Always Remember Love Because Of Romance Only

random

I know i haven't been updating much, i don't know why but i just didn't....maybe cause of all the tests and everything....my last tests ended on Tuesday night and we went to have supper after that..ya i was smiling all the way after the test, not because i did particularly well in that test (my friends been saying i keep smiling cos i excels in the test) but because of tests finally ended, which means here comes the finals...though it's not 100% but knowing that i did much better than the previous one definitely made my day, didn't know if i was lucky or the questions were easy...still i gotta do well in finals since my coursework marks is not good..*cries*


One thing after you had finished your tests, though finals still on its way coming for you, but still you will feel a tinge of relaxation, or at least for me, it is...i woke up the other day, feeling panic like, "OMG i'm late for class!", then after a while feeling relax "Oh my class finished already.."..Ya i'm sorduf stupid keep thinking and trying to figure out is there anything i should do this morning and i didn't or do i need to go lab or something but i forgot...you know what i mean, this kinda stuff...ha ha u might think that what's wrong with me, dun worry you are not alone, cos i myself also feel something wrong with me...lols...


Ha ha by the way, my parents and my beloved sister coming to Penang tomorrow to find me..i had plans already made in my mind for them, mostly also consists of eating...yes i know i'm food addict... *hope the plans turn out well* xD


Missing them and my brother as well...can't wait to finish this semester and back to my home sweet home!!

i'm frigging Piscean =)

Pisces Female

Appearance
A typical Pisces female has slim figure but eventually may fill out nicely with the advance of the years. You have large eyes and an oval face, clear skin and a warm and charming smile. You use your sense of humor to protect your fragile sense of self-worth. You neither dominate nor like being dominated by anyone in your life.
Personality
Being a typical Piscean female, you are feminine, intuitive, responsive and sensual. You are empathetic to those who have problems and are often get used by others. You are a great one for fantasizing. 
Love
Your biggest problem is you tend to pick the wrong mate which results in having extra marital affairs in order to receive the affection necessary for survival. You are also prone to tears and emotionally blackmail others.
Pisces Traits
Positive Traits
• Imaginative and sensitive 
• Compassionate and kind 
• Selfless and unworldly 
• Intuitive and sympathetic
Negative Traits
• Escapist and idealistic 
• Secretive and vague 
• Weak-willed and easily led

Pisces Likes
foods of all kinds, romantic places, sunsets over the sea, waterfalls, ponds, poetry, people, mystical settings, candles, incense, freedom to drift along from moment to moment, and their own uninterrupted personal privacy.
Pisces Dislikes
bright, noisy, crowded, popular places and dirty, ugly, garish objects, and the wrong people.

General features
A typical Pisces is shy and is an abiding love and trust for all those who comes into contact with them. You are eternally romantic in the classic sense and have well-deserved reputation for stumbling over your own feet. You are the most malleable of all the zodiac signs. You possess a gentle, patient nature but the one which needs molding. You adapt to your surroundings whether good or bad. You are generous, friendly and good natured with a true sense of kindness and compassion. You are sensitive to everything around you along with the feelings of others. You are not initiators but allow circumstances and events to motivate them to respond.

Pisceans are not practical people but are sensitive and instinctual. You become completely absorbed in a chosen path to the exclusion of everything else. You are versatile and tend to understand things by absorption rather than logic. You are loyal, home-loving, kind and generous. You can be easily misled because you want to believe. Your dreamy and impractical natures are a source of distress to your near and dear ones. Being a mixture of an optimist and a pessimist, you find it difficult to make up your minds on any issue.


Ha ha i get this from the web...just copied and pasted...xD

complexity

I have complex feelings right now, it's like a mixture of happy, relieved, glad and a pinch of moodiness...but well, still the positive charges are more than the negative ones so i'll consider them as positive ( -ve ones are negligible) =D

Feel relieved after pouring out what's in my mind, feel happy to see my friend after so long, feel glad that all is sorduf well at this moment (minus the exam coming part T_T ), feel that pinch of moodiness when i though of it (headache-causing-stuff which i should just ignore..lol)

At least i know what i should do now, i don't know whether it's right or wrong but maybe it's for the best...s let's hope the for the best  *fingers crossed hard hard*   well i'm kinda retard sometimes so tell me what you are thinking, whether i'm right or wrong, i can't guess what's in your mind...so tell me please i appreciate that really...

Ha ha i saw someone blog with a very "cute" video of herself posted and i really sweat =.=''' after i watched that and i don't know what she's trying to post or what's the purpose of the video and she actually posted it up to you tube...maybe i just not at the same frequency so seriously i don't understand her video, just like maybe you don't understand mine as well (i myself don't sometimes) o.O

Sometimes when you are down, your friend have a way of comforting you and making you feel better, however when they are facing problems you feel useless cause you have got no idea how to make them feel better or helping them to go through the hard times, all i can do is to be at all ears and a big hug...i'm glad that you are feeling better now and surely you can walk past these  *hearts*

I don't know what am i doing here, i should be either sleeping or studying and yet i'm writing here....

i don't even know

Does everything need to be so coincidently come at almost the same time? Oh God i need to breathe, pray to You that don't suffocate me with all these stuff right now....i seriously dislike all things come at the same time, each of them giving me headache and pressure...

*super duper dislike* 

When one thing not down, another coming up, and not good ones either, it's unlike waves which give me cool breeze but instead this a chain of volcanic mountain, one worst than the other..i know something wrong with my description, pardon me, cause i guess something's wrong with me : ( 
Say what you want, that i'm an irresponsible fella, all i know is just running away from these and hide when i don't know how to face these...well maybe it's true, i do admit i tend to avoid and runaway....coward me!! (i know i am) T_T


Well when something been stocking up for i-don't-even-know-how-long period of time, it needs to break out somehow...maybe thats what happening just now..i don't know why it happened but it did....maybe for the sake of my health? *i know very lame de reason*
Thanks for being concern, being there for me and comforting me when i'm like this, you know who you are...♥♥♥♥♥♥


Maybe i need a relaxing escapade...minus all the tutorial, grades, classes, labs, lecturers faces, things which make me stress... I've been dreaming about this since young, one day when i have that amount of money, i will pick up my backpack, go to the airport, choose a destination and off i go, to wherever it is, not knowing what's ahead...

All i need is just somebody to lean on, i'm not that strong after all

i'm tired

Recently this blog been my favorite place to spill out things, when i don't feel right, i will come in here and type..not that it will solve my problems and i doubt whether it makes me feel much better but at least it does help lighten my mood....

I didn't know the reasons but i feel tired especially when i have things continuously from morning till night, lab-class-lab-class...by the end of the day i feel that i'm so veggie (quote from jay, veggie)

Yea that's how i look now.....I'm tired mentally and physically....i guess they were both connected somehow...after being into lab for 2days continuously, i tell my partner to off-lab one day tomorrow, i need some time to study for my test also rite... 
You know this feeling?sometimes when you're having this feeling, wanna make something to work or trying to get things done, there are this people here telling you about giving up and stuff, all you want to do at that moment is shut the person up and telling them off...or well thats what i'm feeling at that moment, strangling the person...yea i know i'm aggressive... *evil laugh* I can't help it, cause i hate it when people does that to me...and don't bother telling me things just to show that you are better when you are the one not understanding things, the worst part is everybody thinking that way too which makes me  feel even worst...i might be harsh at times but i can think of no other words right now which can express my feelings, so pardon me...

I'm exhausted and all i need is someone to lean on

Annoyed

I've spent 2days at home which is awesome though i all did was just eat eat and eat...well, what's better than eating nice food your mom cooked specially for you? i've always love my mom's cooking, be it a simple fried eggs to more complicated dish like stew pork, soup, chicken curry, and i love my mom's steamed and fried fish..yeah it sounds simple but yet i love them....i missed my home already <3

And now i'm annoyed...reaching university at 12am midnight is certainly not a good thing when you need to go to lab at 9am the next morning with another briefing in the afternoon...i'm tired and exhausted and obviously not really in the mood since i leave home...and somebody just need to add a "cherry" to top all these in order to annoyed me to the max, and yeah you've succeeded, happy??

Do u really need to remind me that many times?or you just wanna show to others that you are better than me?nope i don't think so... Yeah you can keep reminding but all i need to do is just to ignore, it's not the first time i ignored moron like you, you'll just be another one i ignored, so why don't you just keep all that to yourself and stuff up your arse, excuse me for my inadequate manners but thats what people like you deserve...

Laughters

I saw this post in my friend's blog about laughters, just feel like sharing it,after all, laughters is something o be shared and spread, isn't it?


1. Fake it until you make it.
Smile more and fake laughter. You'll still achieve positive effects, and the fake merriment may lead to real smiles and laughter.

2. TV & Movies.
There's no shortage of laughter opportunities from the entertainment.

3. Laugh with friends.
Going to a movie or comedy club with friends is a great way to get more laughter in your life.

4. Find humor in your life.
Instead of complaining about life's frustrations, try to laugh about them. Being more lighthearted and silly, giving yourself and those around you more to laugh about.


Yeah i like no.4 , isn't it better to laugh when you fall then crying out loud..

So laugh more often my friends  xD

It's just not the feeling

I know i'm bad and i'm so sorry

for not being straight forward enough

for accepting your words whether it's soothing or sweet

for being very friendly one moment and being very cold the next

for not giving the reactions you expect me to give

for not putting a stop when i first knew it

for doing things which might lead you to walk the path i didn't want you to take

I'm really sorry about all these, though you won't be reading this,a very good reason for why i'm writing this out here...

i thought you know and you understand

maybe it's sweet or it's touching, but that's only where your words led, not till the extend which i might fall into

you don't have to like things i like just to have something in common, this comes naturally

there are people which you can talk from sky to earth with

 and there's people which you can only talk about things like studies or maybe some casual stuff

needless to say, there are people which you can just say hi and bye

with much regret i'm saying that you are the second ones

maybe i'm too sensitive and thinking too much, actually there's nothing with you being that nice

well actually i hope i'm just thinking too much

cause when you are too good or when i feel you get serious, i will feel pressured at times

i don't want you to get serious about it cause i know i can't give you as much you gave

cause it's just not the feeling

wake me up from hibernation

So thats what happen after been away hibernating for some time, dozens and tonnes of things coming at you,begging to be done, almost all at the same time...each of them have a DEADLINE, and by "deadline" i mean it, i'm literally dead if they were not done on time...T_T

Gosh!! i know i suck when it comes to time management, though our timetable is not that packed compared to first year and second year, but how come we still don't find enough time? cause due to the very-free-timetable, we feel that we have too much time and therefore did not prioritize things and here comes the mood for hibernating especially when classes being cancelled etc...

Well time to wake up from hibernation though, and trying to do all the things i need to do and finish them on time...cross my fingers....

好好珍惜

I saw an article the other day and made me thought about many things happened so far, from i-don't-know-when up to now...let's say A treat a girl very good,with no reservation or condition, to her, everything A did was just a routine,something A should do, which was why she never seemed to appreciate everything A did..everyone is asking A not to treat her that good, cause it's not worth it..all A said was "I just want to treat B good and whether or not she appreciate,it doesn't matter to me, i know i won't regret doing all these for her,but i'm sure that i will regret in the future if i didn't do these for her now".

起码以后回想时，我知道自己曾经为一个人无条件的付出过

Most of us surely have this someone at one point in life, no matter past, present or future, someone who will do everything for you and someone whom you will do anything for her/him. Yea when that someone ask you for help or something, you will like say "yes" without thinking, even if that something might get you hurt a little, and there you go thinking "does this worth?", for that nanosecond you might ask yourself and say why should i do all these, but trust me, at the end of the day, you will still help her/him, even if he/she ask you for a second time....on the other hand now, ask yourself, did you appreciate those who do everything for you without doubt or questions, or you just used to it already and feel it's his/her role to do so...but have you ever imagined one day when he/she no longer like that, how will you feel? So from now on, look around and appreciate them, they deserved to be appreciated... 

请珍惜默默为你付出的人

MIA

Not really in mood for long long post recently, will update again soon....

i'm alright

i don't know what happen to me right now, i know i've been MIA-ing for 2days liao...will be back tomorrow, whoever who's worry about me(you know who you are)  thanks and don't worry...i'm alright de...

indeed, sometimes all we want and need is just a sentence of warmth and caring, not asking in a way of blaming...有时候，你将会发现有谁是无条件对你好，没有疑问没有犹豫的对你好，关心你。。谢谢。。

shopping

Went to queensbay today with the boys then meet up with the girls for lunch at azuma (akuma ooppss xP), it was my first visit there, the food is nice,me like...jay always introduce nice food, which you can understand why i'm putting on weight since came into usm... after lunch it was shopping time!!

"I hate u both for tempting me to buy, but still i love shopping with u girls!"

edited some but originally quoted from steph xD

We girls go shop while boys go do their walking or strolling..lol...We shopped and go to few shops but we had quite many stuff, teehee..what do you expect?that's what happen when 3 girls (esp one like us) go shop together...especially when we had a new motto, try something ugly and it will look good on you, try something we seldom wear...i love the time going shopping with you girls...muaks...hugs...

This is the old one that steph mentioned..the new one still with her but same position..lols

Love y'all

The F Word

You know what?i suddenly have this random thought..does saying the f word  make some one feel better? what i mean is you blurted it out when something happen or screwed up...it's understandable, when one say fuck when one is extremely annoyed or angry,or if they say what the fuck, once my friend told me that fuck is another word for love, is it?LOL i don't know...but motherfucker is a big no for me...won't you feel really offended if someone say that to u?


But i seriously can't stand when someone is saying this, "fuck the world, those fucker can you shut your fucking mouth up and just fucking leave", is it a necessity to have so many f word in a shorty sentence? well no offence but i just don't get it...

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=fuck

I know i know, this is so random....lols

o_O

I woke up in the morning(being happy that i'm still early to get ready and go for class), just to find out that my eye is swollen, i can't very well go to class like this..whatever you say, i can't go like this...so made up my mind to read in room instead..i'm having a test tomorrow which now i'm feeling more and more anxious cause it's a hard paper which my teacher say he won't repeat any question and we won't score, though he always say that it's a very easy paper..ironic isn't he?

This is what i've been having for the past few days, or at least that's what i think...

Is it true that studying in toilet increases your memory??i wonder....i wouldn't mind trying..LOL

Okok, finish of crap, back to study.....

Wondering

I'm wondering is it true that behind one's action, there's always motives, be it good or bad ones...I get this from my friend, saying that this is true for most people, boy and girl included, they will expect something in return when they do something for you..

A guy who's courting you will do whatever you want him to.

A girl who wants something from the boyfriend will be an obedient gf for the time being.

A person who treat you good means he/she wants something from you.

A person who expect you to return his/her kindness one day.

A person who's devoted to God, be it christian buddhist or some other, expecting something in return when they pray.

I just feel it is sad to have motives behind every single thing we do, isn't it?? Can't we just do something without thinking why we do it? I don't mean that do those reckless stuff without thinking, just that not every single things in the world need motives to do them...

Parents who love their children and shower them with love and care, they don't expect their children to repay them back.

Treating your another half good and loving him/her doesn't mean there's motives behind them, it's just a way of showing your love for him/her.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Though i'm no Christian but this is one verse from bible that i remember, He didn't ask us to repay Him.

Friend who were there for you during difficult times or when you need a shoulder, being good and caring for a friend doesn't mean that there's motives behind it.

Actually i don't deny that some things that some people do may have motives behind 'em but not all, there are many people out there who do things for doing things, not because of some motives...just do things sincerely...its like, of course it is normal for us to pray for something, you can't say like, we have motives when we pray, it's not really that way...it's not really our place to judge bout all this...i just feel that no matter what we do, having motives or not, it's the sincerity when we do the things that counts..

Failed Planning??

Failing to plan means you are planning to fail.

I think that we had heard this line since like, we were in kindergarten primary school high school until now we were in universities. I don't know why but all the teacher seems to like this phrase, it kept coming out from their mouth, asking us to plan ahead of our studies, our future, et cetera et cetera.. I don't know about others, but i guess i'm always failing in planning...i can make up lots of plan ahead in my head...but the rate of succeed for each and every plan is sadly sadly low...i don't know why but i can make plans but the path to fulfilling my plan, there's always something there, be it a small stone, a big rock or some other distractions which is unhealthy, literally speaking...

Actually, experience from past has tell me sometimes, in some things, you need to do things differently, as in no plans and just spontaneous, you will find that spontaneous plans are always excited...however, in some things you need planning, like your studies and money...you would never want an almost-empty-account when the semester is ending, now do you? (i know i sounds damn ironic, argh slap me)

You might say i'm pathetic but thats what i always had, i plan A i get B, i plan X i get Z...you know, it's like never getting or achieving what i plan or had in mind...maybe i didn't work hard to get what i had plan....but

Man proposes, God disposes

But i know, i know that when your plan succeeds the satisfaction you felt is beyond everything, but thats when you succeed and not failed the plan...LOL

I should have been studying now and yet here i am...gotta go grab my lunch liao...till then...