It's just not the feeling

I know i'm bad and i'm so sorry

for not being straight forward enough

for accepting your words whether it's soothing or sweet

for being very friendly one moment and being very cold the next

for not giving the reactions you expect me to give

for not putting a stop when i first knew it

for doing things which might lead you to walk the path i didn't want you to take

I'm really sorry about all these, though you won't be reading this,a very good reason for why i'm writing this out here...

i thought you know and you understand

maybe it's sweet or it's touching, but that's only where your words led, not till the extend which i might fall into

you don't have to like things i like just to have something in common, this comes naturally

there are people which you can talk from sky to earth with

 and there's people which you can only talk about things like studies or maybe some casual stuff

needless to say, there are people which you can just say hi and bye

with much regret i'm saying that you are the second ones

maybe i'm too sensitive and thinking too much, actually there's nothing with you being that nice

well actually i hope i'm just thinking too much

cause when you are too good or when i feel you get serious, i will feel pressured at times

i don't want you to get serious about it cause i know i can't give you as much you gave

cause it's just not the feeling