Halloween?

Haha i just remembered today is Halloween..another month gone in 2010...

~~~Happy Halloween~~~

finals coming

There's nothing better than having some quality time with your family, even when all you do was just eat eat and eat and talk of course...it's not that being with friends is no fun but the feeling is different, you get what i mean...after 2days with them and now back at my hostel room, happy feeling slowly change to the feeling you have when finals' approaching..when i say approaching, i mean ya very near, which is 14days away, 14days left for me to prepare for 2papers, which obviously not really sufficient...just do my best and hope for the best!!

*guess wont be updating much, unless i really freaked out during these 14days*

All da best guys!

i'm bad

Waking up in the feeling happy that today gonna see my parents and my sister...

*heart heart them*

Suddenly i had this thought barging int my head again, and i feel that somehow i'm bad...gosh i'm bad...it doesn't mean that i do drugs, get wasted or whatsoever..ya u know what i meant by the "bad"...

I'm bad in 

studies timetable - it seems like my timetable's a mess

handling matters - i handle matters badly which hurt people 
*slapping myself mentally*

time management - prioritize unimportant stuff 

fulfilling what i've said - didn't do what i've planned eg running o.O

Oh God i don't even know what i'm writing and the purpose of this already...ya i know and i can see the o.O faces on you....

MARLBORO

Man Always Remember Love Because Of Romance Only

random

I know i haven't been updating much, i don't know why but i just didn't....maybe cause of all the tests and everything....my last tests ended on Tuesday night and we went to have supper after that..ya i was smiling all the way after the test, not because i did particularly well in that test (my friends been saying i keep smiling cos i excels in the test) but because of tests finally ended, which means here comes the finals...though it's not 100% but knowing that i did much better than the previous one definitely made my day, didn't know if i was lucky or the questions were easy...still i gotta do well in finals since my coursework marks is not good..*cries*


One thing after you had finished your tests, though finals still on its way coming for you, but still you will feel a tinge of relaxation, or at least for me, it is...i woke up the other day, feeling panic like, "OMG i'm late for class!", then after a while feeling relax "Oh my class finished already.."..Ya i'm sorduf stupid keep thinking and trying to figure out is there anything i should do this morning and i didn't or do i need to go lab or something but i forgot...you know what i mean, this kinda stuff...ha ha u might think that what's wrong with me, dun worry you are not alone, cos i myself also feel something wrong with me...lols...


Ha ha by the way, my parents and my beloved sister coming to Penang tomorrow to find me..i had plans already made in my mind for them, mostly also consists of eating...yes i know i'm food addict... *hope the plans turn out well* xD


Missing them and my brother as well...can't wait to finish this semester and back to my home sweet home!!

i'm frigging Piscean =)

Pisces Female

Appearance
A typical Pisces female has slim figure but eventually may fill out nicely with the advance of the years. You have large eyes and an oval face, clear skin and a warm and charming smile. You use your sense of humor to protect your fragile sense of self-worth. You neither dominate nor like being dominated by anyone in your life.
Personality
Being a typical Piscean female, you are feminine, intuitive, responsive and sensual. You are empathetic to those who have problems and are often get used by others. You are a great one for fantasizing. 
Love
Your biggest problem is you tend to pick the wrong mate which results in having extra marital affairs in order to receive the affection necessary for survival. You are also prone to tears and emotionally blackmail others.
Pisces Traits
Positive Traits
• Imaginative and sensitive 
• Compassionate and kind 
• Selfless and unworldly 
• Intuitive and sympathetic
Negative Traits
• Escapist and idealistic 
• Secretive and vague 
• Weak-willed and easily led

Pisces Likes
foods of all kinds, romantic places, sunsets over the sea, waterfalls, ponds, poetry, people, mystical settings, candles, incense, freedom to drift along from moment to moment, and their own uninterrupted personal privacy.
Pisces Dislikes
bright, noisy, crowded, popular places and dirty, ugly, garish objects, and the wrong people.

General features
A typical Pisces is shy and is an abiding love and trust for all those who comes into contact with them. You are eternally romantic in the classic sense and have well-deserved reputation for stumbling over your own feet. You are the most malleable of all the zodiac signs. You possess a gentle, patient nature but the one which needs molding. You adapt to your surroundings whether good or bad. You are generous, friendly and good natured with a true sense of kindness and compassion. You are sensitive to everything around you along with the feelings of others. You are not initiators but allow circumstances and events to motivate them to respond.

Pisceans are not practical people but are sensitive and instinctual. You become completely absorbed in a chosen path to the exclusion of everything else. You are versatile and tend to understand things by absorption rather than logic. You are loyal, home-loving, kind and generous. You can be easily misled because you want to believe. Your dreamy and impractical natures are a source of distress to your near and dear ones. Being a mixture of an optimist and a pessimist, you find it difficult to make up your minds on any issue.


Ha ha i get this from the web...just copied and pasted...xD

complexity

I have complex feelings right now, it's like a mixture of happy, relieved, glad and a pinch of moodiness...but well, still the positive charges are more than the negative ones so i'll consider them as positive ( -ve ones are negligible) =D

Feel relieved after pouring out what's in my mind, feel happy to see my friend after so long, feel glad that all is sorduf well at this moment (minus the exam coming part T_T ), feel that pinch of moodiness when i though of it (headache-causing-stuff which i should just ignore..lol)

At least i know what i should do now, i don't know whether it's right or wrong but maybe it's for the best...s let's hope the for the best  *fingers crossed hard hard*   well i'm kinda retard sometimes so tell me what you are thinking, whether i'm right or wrong, i can't guess what's in your mind...so tell me please i appreciate that really...

Ha ha i saw someone blog with a very "cute" video of herself posted and i really sweat =.=''' after i watched that and i don't know what she's trying to post or what's the purpose of the video and she actually posted it up to you tube...maybe i just not at the same frequency so seriously i don't understand her video, just like maybe you don't understand mine as well (i myself don't sometimes) o.O

Sometimes when you are down, your friend have a way of comforting you and making you feel better, however when they are facing problems you feel useless cause you have got no idea how to make them feel better or helping them to go through the hard times, all i can do is to be at all ears and a big hug...i'm glad that you are feeling better now and surely you can walk past these  *hearts*

I don't know what am i doing here, i should be either sleeping or studying and yet i'm writing here....

i don't even know

Does everything need to be so coincidently come at almost the same time? Oh God i need to breathe, pray to You that don't suffocate me with all these stuff right now....i seriously dislike all things come at the same time, each of them giving me headache and pressure...

*super duper dislike* 

When one thing not down, another coming up, and not good ones either, it's unlike waves which give me cool breeze but instead this a chain of volcanic mountain, one worst than the other..i know something wrong with my description, pardon me, cause i guess something's wrong with me : ( 
Say what you want, that i'm an irresponsible fella, all i know is just running away from these and hide when i don't know how to face these...well maybe it's true, i do admit i tend to avoid and runaway....coward me!! (i know i am) T_T


Well when something been stocking up for i-don't-even-know-how-long period of time, it needs to break out somehow...maybe thats what happening just now..i don't know why it happened but it did....maybe for the sake of my health? *i know very lame de reason*
Thanks for being concern, being there for me and comforting me when i'm like this, you know who you are...♥♥♥♥♥♥


Maybe i need a relaxing escapade...minus all the tutorial, grades, classes, labs, lecturers faces, things which make me stress... I've been dreaming about this since young, one day when i have that amount of money, i will pick up my backpack, go to the airport, choose a destination and off i go, to wherever it is, not knowing what's ahead...

All i need is just somebody to lean on, i'm not that strong after all

i'm tired

Recently this blog been my favorite place to spill out things, when i don't feel right, i will come in here and type..not that it will solve my problems and i doubt whether it makes me feel much better but at least it does help lighten my mood....

I didn't know the reasons but i feel tired especially when i have things continuously from morning till night, lab-class-lab-class...by the end of the day i feel that i'm so veggie (quote from jay, veggie)

Yea that's how i look now.....I'm tired mentally and physically....i guess they were both connected somehow...after being into lab for 2days continuously, i tell my partner to off-lab one day tomorrow, i need some time to study for my test also rite... 
You know this feeling?sometimes when you're having this feeling, wanna make something to work or trying to get things done, there are this people here telling you about giving up and stuff, all you want to do at that moment is shut the person up and telling them off...or well thats what i'm feeling at that moment, strangling the person...yea i know i'm aggressive... *evil laugh* I can't help it, cause i hate it when people does that to me...and don't bother telling me things just to show that you are better when you are the one not understanding things, the worst part is everybody thinking that way too which makes me  feel even worst...i might be harsh at times but i can think of no other words right now which can express my feelings, so pardon me...

I'm exhausted and all i need is someone to lean on

Annoyed

I've spent 2days at home which is awesome though i all did was just eat eat and eat...well, what's better than eating nice food your mom cooked specially for you? i've always love my mom's cooking, be it a simple fried eggs to more complicated dish like stew pork, soup, chicken curry, and i love my mom's steamed and fried fish..yeah it sounds simple but yet i love them....i missed my home already <3

And now i'm annoyed...reaching university at 12am midnight is certainly not a good thing when you need to go to lab at 9am the next morning with another briefing in the afternoon...i'm tired and exhausted and obviously not really in the mood since i leave home...and somebody just need to add a "cherry" to top all these in order to annoyed me to the max, and yeah you've succeeded, happy??

Do u really need to remind me that many times?or you just wanna show to others that you are better than me?nope i don't think so... Yeah you can keep reminding but all i need to do is just to ignore, it's not the first time i ignored moron like you, you'll just be another one i ignored, so why don't you just keep all that to yourself and stuff up your arse, excuse me for my inadequate manners but thats what people like you deserve...

Laughters

I saw this post in my friend's blog about laughters, just feel like sharing it,after all, laughters is something o be shared and spread, isn't it?


1. Fake it until you make it.
Smile more and fake laughter. You'll still achieve positive effects, and the fake merriment may lead to real smiles and laughter.

2. TV & Movies.
There's no shortage of laughter opportunities from the entertainment.

3. Laugh with friends.
Going to a movie or comedy club with friends is a great way to get more laughter in your life.

4. Find humor in your life.
Instead of complaining about life's frustrations, try to laugh about them. Being more lighthearted and silly, giving yourself and those around you more to laugh about.


Yeah i like no.4 , isn't it better to laugh when you fall then crying out loud..

So laugh more often my friends  xD

It's just not the feeling

I know i'm bad and i'm so sorry

for not being straight forward enough

for accepting your words whether it's soothing or sweet

for being very friendly one moment and being very cold the next

for not giving the reactions you expect me to give

for not putting a stop when i first knew it

for doing things which might lead you to walk the path i didn't want you to take

I'm really sorry about all these, though you won't be reading this,a very good reason for why i'm writing this out here...

i thought you know and you understand

maybe it's sweet or it's touching, but that's only where your words led, not till the extend which i might fall into

you don't have to like things i like just to have something in common, this comes naturally

there are people which you can talk from sky to earth with

 and there's people which you can only talk about things like studies or maybe some casual stuff

needless to say, there are people which you can just say hi and bye

with much regret i'm saying that you are the second ones

maybe i'm too sensitive and thinking too much, actually there's nothing with you being that nice

well actually i hope i'm just thinking too much

cause when you are too good or when i feel you get serious, i will feel pressured at times

i don't want you to get serious about it cause i know i can't give you as much you gave

cause it's just not the feeling